Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I just did a depression online test - and how about it I am depressed

I feel alot of it is based on self esteem issues
the extract below is from the Reach out Website

How Does Your Self-Esteem Affect Your Life?
Your self-esteem can affect how you feel, how you relate to other people, how you deal with challenges and how relaxed and safe you feel in your daily life:
The Way You Feel
In order to be happy you need to like yourself. If you believe that you are not OK, or if you are constantly putting yourself down, you are more likely to feel depressed, anxious or miserable than someone who has a positive view of themselves.
Your Relationships
Low self-esteem can influence the way you behave with other people. For instance, you might find yourself being unassertive (not saying what we think, feel or want), and doing things we don't want to do.
Or you might find yourself trying too hard to please other people - agreeing with them and offering to do things for them in order to 'earn' their friendship.
Low self-esteem might also cause you to seek reassurance from your friends, because deep down, you may not be sure that they like you. You might allow others to 'walk all over you' because you believe you have no rights, and that your needs don't matter. Being treated badly by other people can reinforce the belief that you are not good enough, and can lower your self-esteem even more.
Your Willingness to Move Out of Your Comfort Zone
Trying new things and moving out of our 'comfort zone' at times is important for growing and developing as a person. Low self-esteem might hold you back from new experiences because you become overly concerned with the possibility of failure or looking stupid.
How Relaxed and Comfortable You Feel in the World
When your self-esteem is low, it is difficult to feel relaxed and comfortable in day to day situations.
For instance, if you believe that you are not OK you might feel awkward and self-conscious in many situations. You might worry too much about what others think of you, and might be constantly on the lookout for signs that people don't like you. If someone doesn't acknowledge you, you might immediately assume that they don't like you.

Yep - I could of nearly written that!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

The Closed Book
Not many people out there I would say have been able to read the book that is me - don't get me wrong I have a collection of friends and all of them I love dearly! Saying that most people I meet are not able to get past the introduction or preface of the book that is me! Let alone past the third chapter of the book.
Maybe I don't allow the book to be taken off the shelf, or maybe the book has one of those magic things you see - that certain pages are visible on certain occassions - and the rest of the time they are not visible. A couple of years ago,my new year resolution was try to be a more interesting book, that is easier to read - I feel that at the moment I have probably made my book harder to read.
I think I might need to go back to the plan to try and make the book more interesting, and to possible make it on a bestseller list! Just how do I do it? How do I make the changes while still remaining primarily me?
So again another blog that isn't the most positive!
On positive news - 2 Couples that I am friends with - both told the world that they were pregnant by facebook in the last 2 weeks - it is an exciting time for all!
I just realised that have 5 friends named Sarah on facebook - that's just weird!